Monday, November 3, 2014

Kanda Qalish Turns TWO

Alhamdulillah. Allah is great. He’s planned is unbeatable.
Kanda turns 2 last week, on the 25th of October 2014.
We had a small celebration for him involved families and closed friends.
Foods, drinks, decoration all by us, unlike his 1 Year Old celebration (huge party I tell you)
I never thought I will be a mother, never cross in my mind.
But then again, like I said Allah is great. He knew I am capable for being a good mother to my son.

After he turn 1, his father left us for work duty at Kuching, Sarawak.
So yeah me being a “tinggal” mother still in shock yet Alhamdulillah I managed to do all by myself so well.
It’s not easy being a single mother, so I salute all single mothers out there!
We spend a lot of time together, he my shopping partner and I am his play time partner.
Aaaahh Kanda don’t grow too fast, Ibu will definitely miss our moment together.
Thank you for being such a great boy, for let me be a better person now.
Unlike back then, sumpah tak terurus lansung. Thank you SONshine.
Moga Allah panjangkan usia anak ibu supaya boleh menjadi umatnya yang soleh dan bertaqwa.
Hormat orang tua dan kaum hawa serta bimbing mereka ke jalan Allah yang ESA.


Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Play School - Sick - Paranoid Mother

Kanda turn 2 this coming 25th Oct.
I still have no idea should I or shouldn’t I throw a birthday party for him.
His 1 year old birthday bash was oh-sem! Football theme fosho. LOL!
He’s like his ayah, ball ball ball. Boring? Yes please.
I think I should do his birthday celebration at any Tahfiz school so that instead he gets more toys he will received “doa” from the students. Yup good idea huh! Semoga menjadi anak yang soleh, amin!
I plan to register him to tahfiz as well anyway.

Talking about register him to any tahfiz, actually at his age 1 year 6 months I already put him in a play-school but I was very unhappy with that school. My son always fall sick, erh almost every month.
Last month was the worst, he woke up at 230am – 3am and keep on puked and his body temperature will reach until 39.8c.
As a “tinggal mother”, without husband around I have to bring my son at that hour to the hospital by myself and an antibiotic doesn’t work at all. I visit different hospital almost 3 times for the past 3 weeks.
Bangi kids specialist is not recommended at all, An Nur ke Az Zaharah ke, big NO NO now.
Then end up I bring him to Gleneagles Hospital and guess, for the past few weeks he actually diagnose with bronchitis and also RSV Group A. I was beyond shock!

Then this FBI mother trying to investigate where he got this virus, been asking his school whether they accept sick kids come to school and they dengan selamber says “Yes Puan, because their parents kena pergi kerja.” I feel like scream yet I said ok, that’s it, Kanda will just stay at home after this and we will look for other school, better school for sure. International Islamic school semua dah fully booked for 2015. SAD! Mesti ada, mesti ada, be positive seena.

To all future parents, it’s not easy being parents, you want beyond the best for your kids.
And you’re not simply got what you want and what you need.  
Whatever it is, son, your supermother will always there to protect you until you find a protective crazy girlfriend who can take over my job, hurm but.. Please let me be your no 1 still ya!


Everlasting Love

Monday, October 6, 2014


Siapa yang tak pernah lalui situasi yang kita sendiri tak duga.
Dunia ni mana ada perfect. Semua orang ada perasaan.
Yang baik pun kadang kadang dengki jugak. Jangan tipu please!
I’m not perfect. I admit, because I want more than what I needs.
Tapi ye la, life masing masing kan, lain la ceriteranya.

Last week I received threats email from unknown.
He wants my friend’s hp number.
Hurm, hello I’m not mak ayam yang easily can give my friend’s number to strangers.
So since I totally ignored his email, he sends me threats email (I think he’s my fake followers on IG)
Okay scary, since that my IG is private. Gilalah manusia macam ni pun wujud?
His email threats sound like this “Kedekutt!! Okey fine xnk bg kan?? Well kite tgk pe jadi dgn anak kamu. Bye2.”
And I straight took half day leave and lodge a police report.

What can I say here, whenever we go, whatever we do, ada je yang memerhati.
Tak kisah kawan ke, strangers ke, kita kena berhati hati.
Dunia dah tak aman, and obviously Malaysia dah tak aman. SAD!

I try to shop undercover.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Sad Good Bye but Happy

Setiap tahun adalah permulaan yang baru buat kami sekeluarga.
Being a footballer’s wife, I chose to stay in KL for the sack of not leaving my job.
Everything is money now, I got a lot of commitment. Like A LOT A LOT.
So this year 2014, my husband decided to attached with Sarawak FA.
Basically this whole year we had a Long Distance Relationship which is it’s really hard for me to adapt.
Lagi pulak bila ada small baby yang kadang kadang tu tiba tiba demam tiba tiba itu ini.
Everyday is standby for emergency day for me tak kisah siang atau malam.
But Alhamdulillah, we manage to put everything in control.

I love Sarawak FA. I love the managements and also the fans.We are like family.
For the past few years, I never get so closed with the wives and girlfriends but different this year,
they are like my sisters who always there when I’m around Kuching.

Season is over, and people come and go. And of course my husband had to leave Sarawak for being with us in KL. Kanda needs him. I need him around to complete our family.
So this morning, one of the wife whatsapp me and express how sad she is when my husband told everyone that he had to leave them to be with his family back in KL. She’s originally from KL but moved there to be with his husband and I know how she feel when everyone who closed with her leaving her alone, “tempat mengadu”. Heartbroken, indeed. How I wish I could heal your pain but then again, good bye is the hardest things to do.

To my dear sister, I know you won’t read this because I never tell anyone about my blog.
We as a muslim we have the strongest weapon, iaitu DOA. Keep strong baby girl and keep on pray.
I know is easy for me to say, but this is life. Life is unfair yet so colorful.
Once you manage to cross the bridge, you can easily breathe and trust me you became strongest woman I’ve ever known. Take care darling.

And welcome home housemate, setahun kami menunggu!

The Cheerleaders

Monday, September 29, 2014

Supir or Driver in Bali

Sorry you all, I memang dah lama tak bukak my blog but then Thank You so much for your reading dear silent reader. Ok ramai yang tanya pasal supir saya di Bali and yes I still keep in touch with him. He such a great man and also he have a beautiful wife and lovely kids.
Here is his handphone no. +62 8776 0387 567 and you can personally find him on his FB Krisna Tresno Bali Tour. Highly recommended!
Have a great day!


It's been almost a year or more I've been on hiatus mode.
I really don't have time to blog now even I have tons of story to tell.
Throughout the years I've kept everything to myself, I forgot I have this "friend" to express my emotions.
Life is not dificult actually, it just being more colorful than before, tougher than I could imagine.

Grateful in any condition & situations.
Alhamdulillah I still can breath with a good health and surrounded with such a lovable people.

What is wrong lately?
For the past 3 years?
Where is the dreamt I have dream since I was 12?
Ahh it just a normal disney dreams that everyone had. Bluergh takdir tidak boleh ditepis wahai manusia.

Depression it is now.

But you my son is saya punya ubat, sampai bila bila untuk saya.

I love you.

Thank you. *smiling*

My Forever Date